Nov 10th, Evening

Woo! Back on the wagon. Did my morning pages two days in a row, good Taylor. I even did a "prayer" this morning. (Something to the tone of, "Dear Gloria, help me t fill my day with love, light, and peace.") And I did a water purification in the shower - complete with a chant, which I rarely ever do, so I'm proud of myself. ("Water, water, flow through me, bringing positivity, taking negativity, water, water, flow through me.")

Haven't done any card pulls; I'm still mulling over the last one, and somehow it doesn't feel right to move on until I figure this one out. I'm probably looking at that "wrong" though. (Not "wrong" as in there's only one way to see it, but more like "wrong" as in not benificial to me.)

I started cleaning my room and rearranging things yesterday, and did a little work on that today as well, but today I succumbed to the lure of the computer. Tomorrow I'm going to get a big chunk of it done with, though. Mostly what I want to do right now is get the clothes I need washed, washed, and sort through what's in my cabinets, tossing anything that's garbage, keeping only what it needed, and giving away or selling what I can. (Diablo II player's guide? Meet Game Stop. Have fun. Gimme cash. Lol!)

I also finally got around to painting a wand I've been meaning to give to my friend. Her birthday was a few months ago and I told her I'd have something for her when I could. I'm sure she's forgotten by now, so it'll be a really nice surprise. :)

Nov 8th, Evening

This weekend was a spiritual bust. I did not do the morning pages either day. I didn't do, well, ANYTHING with the practice either day.

Yesterday I took the SAT from 8 in the morning until about 1 in the afternoon, then I watched The Uninvited, then I went to John's and stayed there until about 10 and came home and crashed.

Today I didn't get up until almost noon, then I took a nice long shower. I stayed downstairs in the kitchen with my computer set up on the table all day, until about twenty minutes ago. I didn't get much done besides a few posts on the SpiritsCast forums and a good dose of negativity via Gaiaonline, though I did get my site registered for Google Adsense and convinced my friend to add my music page on MySpace as a friend.

I've been increasingly negative these last few days, and I don't like it. I enjoyed not being a bitch. (Wait, what?!) I enjoyed feeling happy and at peace.
I bet if I went hermit for a week I'd feel no bitchiness at all, lol! But I can't do that, can I? I live with my parent(s), I go to high school, and I'm romantically attached. No hermitism for me, sadly.

School tomorrow, and I'm going to get back in sync with the practice. I understand that I am only starting out with this, and that starting out is not always an easy, quick flow into routine. It takes work and commitment, and I am willing to get over my failure and progress into success.

Cardshare 1

Well, everyone else seems to be including their card pulls in their blogs, so I figured I'd hop on the wagon.
I'll preface this with two things: One, I use playing cards instead of Tarot, though I pretty much use Tarot-equivalent meanings (eg., 4 of spades and 4 of swords). Two, this first cardshare is from November 5th, the Day I Did Everything.

Thursday, November 5th, 2009
About 2:15 pm

I shuffled the cards with a desire to discover more about the path that I'm embarking on. I think I may have asked too many questions for a two card pull.
I got the ace of hearts on top and the two of clubs on the bottom. Base instinct says that obviously this is something new, the low numbers tell us that. 2 of clubs is the beginning of work, when it begins to take shape; a block of wood hinting at its final product. Ace of hearts is the beginning of love. The combination hints to me that te path I am beginning to set myself on will require work, but will be extremely emotionally rewarding.

My notes on the cards say that 2 of clubs, or wands, indicated instinct, direction, and a choice of where to focus, and 1 of hearts or cups indicates beginnings, raw potential, and a welling of new emotion.
This backs up my beginning interpritation.

The cards may indicate problems with my relationship as a result of this new path, so I should pay careful attention to that.